I haven't been blogging lately coz I've been kinda bummed. I guess after reading so many blogs I expected things to get worse before they get better, as with everything thing else you can deal with, but I guess since this is such a big deal the waiting hurts more and the patience decreases.
Remember when I said the dental insurance got canceled but the medical insurance was still active? Well, not anymore! Apparently the medical insurance provider wasn't as kind as the dental as to send me a letter letting me know it'll be canceled at a certain date. They went ahead and canceled it right on my birthday. Isn't that nice? What a lovely birthday gift. At least the dental insurance had the decency to extend insurance til the end of my birth month.
I got a call from my surgeon's office the day after my birthday to let me know and that's how I found out. Because I no longer had insurance my appointment had to be canceled. Oh this is just the GREATEST news! I was told I can make another appt when I get insurance again. Since it's my dad's insurance he went ahead and called them to see if there's anything that can be done. We were hoping for an extension or maybe a temporary insurance. The rep told us we can get an insurance premium from July til the end of the year, approx 5 months, but it would be over $300 per month. My dad was about to hand over the credit card over the phone right away but I told him not to. My mom recently lost her job and I'm still unemployed and they're having enough trouble paying bills as it is, the last thing I wanted was to put more burden on them.
I really didn't wanna be working around the time of this journey because it doesn't look good to request a vacay into a new job, and usually you never get the amount of time you really need and are forced to suck it up. But I guess with this wonderful new change I have no choice but to dive in and hope my manager will understand when the time comes. So I'm ganna go ahead and apply for some jobs again and hope I get something. I put this fate in Gods hands....
On the plus side, I started convincing myself I'll have to suffer with this for the rest of my life and as a result I've been worrying about it less. The way you think can really change the way you see things. On Mother's Day, I made a matching bracelet and earrings set for my mom and the bracelet had 3 picture frames: 1 had both of my brothers, another my dad, and the third was a picture of me. It took me 9 shots to decide on one I liked! I can't wait for the day I'll finally be satisfied with just one.
Also, I found out a good friend of mine got braces a few months ago. Looking at her pictures I really hadn't noticed because she got clear brackets so I had to do a double take. They look really good! Her teeth looked perfectly straight to me though but people told me the same about mine and my braces certainly changed my mind. I guess we see ourselves a little differently from how others see us because we only have to look at ourselves in the mirror constantly and not at others' faces. Seeing her with braces kinda makes me miss having them...and I wish I were given the option of having clear brackets then too lol
I hope I'll get to update this blog with good news in the coming weeks :-/...
